No problems, Nonnie! It’s precisely why I am keeping the rating where it is: for a large variety of reasons, many people out there simply don’t want to read it. It’s an easy thing to do to just pop it in a little one-shot for those who do!
Tag: asexuality
I have a question. My headcanon for Dori has always been that he is ace, and either aromantic or demiromantic, which I was really glad to see in Sansukh, but I also have another headcanon for him. That Nori disappeared for awhile after their mother died and so Dori, alone, broke, and with baby Ori to take care of, had to turn to prostitution to make sure Ori had a roof over his head and such. Do you think that’s possible, or…?
Hey Nonnie!
Anything’s possible! I’m not using that particular idea in Sansukh (it’d be an entire fic in itself!!), but it’s a heartbreaking and interesting headcanon!
first off, sansukh is amazing, of course. i could give so much praise for everything you’ve done with it, with dwarves, with dwarf culture, etc. BUT that would take all day and i’ve got a question to get to (sorry. i still love it <3 but sorry) so i seem to have developed a bit of an infatuation with dori recently. you've often got little, i guess you could call them side-pairings, those little asides with romances mentioned but not integral to the story. anything planned for dori?
First – thank you, I’m so happy you’re enjoying the fic and all the worldbuilding and culture stuff! It’s a lot of work, but I do love it, and it’s just so lovely to hear that.
Ah, I’m really really sorry to disappoint you, Nonnie, but it’s mentioned a few times in the fic that my version of Dori is aro-ace. He’s an important Dwarf, Guildmaster and Quartemaster of Erebor, and he mothers half the mountain – and terrifies the rest, because he’s still one of the strongest Dwarves. He’s not interested in the slightest in romance.
(to the eternal disappointment of most of Erebor, because Dori is also Mr Hottie TA 3019.)
You’re asexual? But…
“but sex is what makes us human!”
in 1916 a French officer in his twenties writes his
doctoral dissertation under
heavy mortar fire.
he sends it by mail, a page
at a time, to his wife.
a week before he’s to step up to the podium and
defend his work rather than his country
he is killed in action.
even as the bullets rip
through him he still wishes he could have become a professor
in French literature and
the university awards him a posthumous Ph.D.
sex is
a woman breaks down in tears on the phone because
a week is not enough time to
get over a breakup.
her sister drives an hour across town,
comes up the front steps with
a gallon of ice cream and somebeer
and together they eat moose tracks and marathon
every
single
Godzilla movie
ever made.
sex is
she’s late for work but her car isn’t
starting and even through her coat and hat she’s cold.
she knows she can’t be late again because she’s missed
one time too many already because her
father’s nurse was sick with the flu and someone
needed to help him bathe.
the clock ticks past fifteen after and she hits
the wheel like it’s a heavy bag as though that will help
steps on the gas like the car will go
and wonders how she will pay rent
and how she will feed her father.
sex is
it takes three people to hold the predator down because
even with the cover over his head
a bleeding eye and shattered wing
he is trying to hurt them.
none of them have seen this bird before in their lives but
they bandage his wing and head and give him a painkiller and
put him in a warm place to sleep and heal because
it is right.
at first he is paralyzed and cannot
fly but soon he is taking steps
and then fluttering, and then soaring, and
six months later he is whole and healed and hunting.
once he is gone they never see him again
which means they’ve done their jobs right.
sex is
in 1969 a girl watches grey-and-white footage on her parents’ tinytelevision and
can’t quite believe that what she is seeing is not a movie set but
another planet.
the men on the screen look a little like
aliens with bulbous heads and no faces and fat
marshmallow arms
but they are still men.
her mother puffs on a cigarette behind her and declares that
this is progress
even if it was just a small step.
the girl grows up to be not an astronaut but a secretary
and her boss calls her ‘sweetheart’.
but sex is
a boy is taught that real men don’t cry so
he doesn’t.
when his best friend dies from a self-inflicted
gunshot wound, he locks himself
in the shower every day and sobs under scalding
water until it runs cold
so nobody will see him grieving
so nobody will see that tears are just love that
has no place left to go.
he learns to dull love rather than suppress its expression and
soon the owner of the liquor store knows him by name.
three DUIs, two evictions, and twelve steps later,
he is feeding people at a homeless shelter,
and telling them it’s all right to cry.
Sex is
the broken man tells the comedian
that he didn’t mean to step in front of the car but the rain
made it hard to see.
he seems okay but his leg
does not.
the comedian clutches a grubby receipt with the driver’s
plate number scrawled on the back
in pink pen, stands out in the rain so the broken man
can have his umbrella,
and gives him the comedy routine that ruined his career
so the man doesn’t think about the pain in his leg.
once he’s out of the hospital, the fixed man sends him a thank-you card
with kittens on it.
what makes us human
yawning is contagious,
and there is a species of bird whose young we call “pufflings”.
melodic collections of sound, spaced by silence,
can move us to tears.
the tallest building in the world is
two-thousand seven-hundred and seventeen feet tall.
in less than eighty years we went from our first powered flight
to touching the moon,
and in one-hundred from the first phone call
to instantaneous connection between thinking machines of our owncreation.
we make pies out of tree organs
and let cow’s milk ferment until it hardens and then
we put them together, because apple pie with cheddar cheese is
delicious.what makes us human is
the earliest
fossils of anatomically modern humans aretwo-hundred
thousand years old .we have had
pet dogsfor sixteen-thousand
of those years, longerthan corn
or the
wheel.the steps we
take are part ofone of the
most energy-efficient gaits theanimal
kingdom has ever seen.we invented
the concepts of loveand hate
and justice,
and mercyand we
invented the language to convey them.we sharpened
rocks, then metal, to convince other peoplewho don’t
hold the same idea of those things as we dobecause we
thinkit’s right.
we are two
hundred millennia of love and disappointment andsorrow and
innovation andmercy and kindness
and dreamsand failure
and
recovery.but sex is what makes us human.
Hey love, the new chapter was absolute heartbreaking perfection as usual! And I loved the addition of the trans!elleth, I was wondering if you’d ever consider adding an ace/aro character? (If so I recommend fili)
Oh my gosh, I am thrilled you enjoy Merilin! We’re going to be seeing her for a long long time yet, I have plans! Also – I hope you’ll be glad to hear that I have heaps of aro-ace characters already! Dori, Nori, Barur Stonebelly and Oin have all been mentioned explicitly in the text as ace. I also consider Frodo and Boromir to be ace. Balin is homoromantic ace.
Lots of Ace characters ftw!