let my boy sleep holy shit Fíli go to sleep you doofus
Fili’s taken on this massive sense of responsibility towards Frodo (and Sam, too, to a lesser extent)
he just can’t let go of that sense of responsibility, not after so long and after being so inextricably entwined with their story, he really really can’t
I’ve been so super busy with a work project-almost two months now…so Drawing has been impossible! But things are winding down so finally i can draw some Sansukh (written by @determamfidd ) fanart ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
I just did a doodle of something i kind of thought of after reading chapter 46 of Sansukh. Fili trying to be the best ghost wingman ever for Sam!
I can’t wait for the next chapter! ^///^ Also can i just add i was so ecstatic to see Rosie asking about Frodo!? I love that she’s worried for him and sam <3.. You have no idea how long i was holding me breath about Rosie’s character. *cough frodo/sam/rosie for the win cough*
EEEEEEEEEEE
lajshdgfljahs Fili, you are a bro
Kazi, this is FANTASTIC! and I am in LOVE with both Fili’s expression and lookit Rosie’s beautiful eyes and her sweet, anxious face and that CLOUD OF HAIR OH MY GOSH
(and *coughyesyesyestoyourshippingspeculationSOYUPcough*)
IT’S BRILLIANT! thank you so so SO MUCH, I love it! You have such a skill at pinpointing and fleshing out little moments into just. such realised and great character interactions, holy heck I LOVE ITTTTTT
nah, why would he? the twins are only very distantly related to Fili (second cousins once removed, I think??? I’ll check), and this moment isn’t about him at all. He’s not the sort of person to make this occasion All About Himself. Neither would Fili ever really rip into Dain for needing a small moment of emotional deflection, over something so insignificant as Fili’s hair colour.
Dain does a lot of emotional misdirection through his jokes and throwaday lines, both when he is happy and when he is sad. This is one of those moments. He is trying not to explode, basically, and so we get one of his patented Dain™ lines. It’s not about Fili at all.
But underneath, Dain is staggered and delighted over his grandchild having red hair (as is Bombur, for that matter). To conceal this, he tosses away this flippant sort of line which basically boils down to: ‘SHE HAS RED HAIR. HER HAIR IS RED IT IS RED LIKE MINE, AND I’M NOT CRYING IT’S JUST RAINING ON MY FACE NOW, NOTHING TO SEE HERE AHHH SHE HAS MY HAIR.’
He does a very poor job of concealing how he feels, this time around! And the reflexive effort is wasted anyway, because he and Bombur are just too, too happy to hide it.
Dets, I’ll have you know that I’m holding you to the “happy ending” tag because OUCH
IT’S GONNA HAPPEN I PROMISE I PROMISE
Hey Nonnie! Glad you like the story!
A note on the whole ‘Ones’ thing: no soulmates in Sansukh, sorry. I dislike the whole ‘predestination’ thing… I like free will. I also believe that it isn’t one person alone that could be ‘made for you’… you could be happy with any number of different people, but you have to choose them, choose it, and work at it, every day. A personal bias thingy there.
Nori explicitly tells us in the story that he and Dori are both aro-ace… well, actually, he specifies that Dori is aro-ace, and that he himself is definitely aro… perhaps not ace! But he ain’t telling. A Dwarf needs a few secrets, and Nori likes to keep folks guessing.
Fili’s storyline in this fic is not about romance, and I will not create one for him… his story arc is about stepping up to leadership in his own right.
(I hope you note that Nori was first calling Thorin ‘boss’… but now? Now he calls FILI ‘boss’. Also, Fili has developed a nearly pathological protective streak for Frodo a mile wide. He is becoming a leader and a protector in ways that have nothing to do with his bloodline and heritage. GO FILI, GO FILI, GOLDEN HEART MY SON, YOU LITTLE BEAUTY)
Frerin has the crush to end all crushes on both Eowyn AND Faramir. But also recall, he still has the body and emotional responses of a mid-teen. Poor boy has the intellect of a much, much older Dwarf, but it’s crammed into a tiny body with a truckload of hormones. I don’t think we will see him in actual, reciprocal romantic love in this state.
(but hey, we have good evidence that he is at the very least bisexual, and that he is hella poly.)
AHHH THANK YOU NONNIE! I am stunned and stoked that you enjoy it so much! And eeee, yes, I’m so glad you like Fili’s trajectory in the fic! He is my Golden son, my word yes. He’s come SO FAR.
There’ll be some more! But at this stage I think it will be interactions in combination with other characters… not entirely sure! *cough*DIS*coughcough*FRERIN*cough*
Oooh, I’ve covered a bit of that in the story through their reactions etc: They’re not jealous, no way. Really early on, they saw that Gimli was helping Thorin connect and re-centre himself. That’s a GOOD thing.
Like, if someone close to you is self destructive and imploding slowly, and you personally are not the one that gets through and helps them (despite trying or whatever), it doesn’t really make sense to be jealous of the person that does. You’re relieved and happy that the one close to you is doing better.
Thorin has a special name for his nephews: they are his Undayûy. It means ‘greatest boys’. They are special to him in ways that Gimli can’t replace (and vice-versa). Thorin will always feel protective and paternal towards them: he helped raise them.
He’s not the primary parental figure to Fili and Kili – Dis is and always will be THE parental figure – but he is absolutely one of the most formative pillars of their lives, is there for them, teaches them, cares for them. He loves them unconditionally.
At first, Gimli was a touchstone for Thorin, he’s been a way back to the world and to life. That’s an entirely different thing, and he loves Gimli for it in a different way. I love my students entirely and with all my heart, I’ve watched them grow up and change and learn and BECOME, and I am stupendously proud of them. But I don’t love them exactly the way I love my niblings.
Too, much like a teacher-student relationship after a long long time, Thorin and Gimli are moving slowly towards a friendship of equals now.
Thorin has a gigantic damn heart. There’s a lot of love there for a lot of people.
(PLUS Fee and Kee love Gimli too. They were playfellows and friends as children, and he helped their uncle AND their mother. They’re all ‘AW YEAH GO GIMMERS!!!’)
Hey! Yeah, Ais and Folgar have been watching… but they’re mostly on the sidelines here, too many bosses and not enough workers, that sort of thing!
They ADORE Fili and Kili. ADORE. THEM.
They’re not really intimidated by Thror OR Hrera – well, not any more. Ais is… a lot more chatty and familiar and bustling than Hrera thinks is strictly proper, but they’re decent friends. Ais thinks Hrera has a gigantic stick up her *ahem*, but respects her bravery and stoicism and intelligence. Folgar likes Hrera’s caustic humour, and likes to tease her a bit to draw it out. She ignores that with all the bristly dignity in her.
Ais and Folgar are a very chatty, VERY joking, very busy sort of couple!!!
At first both Ais and Folgar were rather awed and cowed by Thror… but all the time in the Halls has rubbed the edges off his position. He sometimes joins Folgar and his friends for their jolly old drinking-and-pipes-and-darts sessions. He is a lot more quiet and reserved than either of them, but enjoys the company and the comradery.
I don’t think I’m going to be able to fit them into the massive cast of the main fic. (also @fuckthisimgoingtoerebor would KILL ME.) Maybe they’ll get a ficlet or something.
I’ve got a few things on them here on my blog! Try this ask, and this one!
Dis has been waiting a long time to have a word with her big brother Thorin.
@determamfidd can’t wait for Dís to get to the halls in Sansukh hahaha!
Uncle Thorin, little Fili and bb!Kili (▰˘◡˘▰)
This is something my father used to do with my sisters and I. SO. MUCH. FUN. Pity we’re all too big now :’)
Aw Yiss 