DETS YOU’RE BACK!!! *bounces like a tiggery thing*

Hey Nonnie!

Yes, I’m venturing back. Apologies for the long absence. I tend to disappear from the internet when my brain is doing the depression fandango, in order to devote what energy I have to my family and responsibilities. I’m sorry I was away so long, but I think I’m on the upswing now!

Actually I’m content with slow updates (as long as it’s because you’re happily fulfillingly satisfyingly busy) because… only four more chapters, and no new Sansukh. I will so miss your vision of this world! You’ve brought deep complex life to so many characters. Thank you for your gifts of words and music!

Phew, I’m glad – bc god knows, I am not fast!!!

*hugs* I’ll miss it too, it’s older than my own kid and I suspect I’ll be a bit lost for a while after it is all done. I plan to spend some time splashing merrily in the Appendices, telling some of the supplemental stories to the main fic (such as Bani and Baris’ love story, for instance), but yeah. IDK. I will be both relieved and very sad to see it end!

(1/?) Since I just finished the most glorious fic of our fandom, and am now in awe of your glory, I have questions about your editing process, if you don’t mind; My dream is to be a published novelist, and I am so curious…! So, if I may ask…?

(2/?) How do you like to edit your works? Chapter by chapter, scene by scene, entire work by entire work? Is it all on the computer, or do you print it out and red-pen it up? Do you let other people beta-read, or is it just you aiming for perfection?

(¾) Sorry if that’s so much, and you don’t have to answer, but the editing process is one that has been a serious struggle for me, and one that most authors seem kind of secretive about… But your works are a joy to read and a great inspiration, 

(4/4) that I would be foolish not to ask to pick your brain a little. In the meantime, thank you so much for everything you’ve done and written! I hope things are going well for you, your dwarfling is healthy, and your muse never fails! ♡

Hey Nonnie!

Awerhwlkejhfglsjhdfs honestly!! *fans face* that is super nice of you to say, thank you SO much, aaaaah

I think that is a wonderful dream. Go for it, with all your heart and all my love and encouragement. 

Okay, well, bear in mind that this is all very subjective!

I do edit A LOT. I am constantly editing, frankly. There is a little bit of everything: sometimes a sentence or a single line of dialogue needs revising, and sometimes a whole scene needs re-writing. It’s not that it is BAD, per se, it is just that perhaps it isn’t adding anything. Or perhaps it is just clumsy, and so rewriting it will refine and distil it.

I do try to “zoom out” on occasion and look at the work as a whole, trying to find the weakest sections. I know I am not impartial when it comes to this, so it can sometimes be a challenge. I feel this is probably my weakest editing skill. 

My strongest editing skill is most likely polishing scene by scene. It is sort of like music to me, or art, in that every scene has a sort of… shape, like a flow or a contour. I often think of the shapes of musical phrases, or like, musical structures, for instance. I build them up, remove the ones that interrupt the pace and the flow, re-write the ones that feel like they don’t belong. To me, every scene has to have a point to it, even a short scene. It has to have a reason. Otherwise why are we looking at it? So everything has to fit that shape, that contour. If it deviates, it has to have a REASON to do so. So, if a scene is a slow-building tension before a fight between two friends, and then there is a joke of some sort? That joke diffuses the tension. Why? For me, it would be in order to begin building it again, even higher than before. The joke gives the reader a moment to breathe and relax after all that tension – and then I can ramp it up even more, because the breather means that they have the stamina to come with me.

When editing and re-reading, if I can’t point to a scene and say: “the reason for this scene is [character development/plot advancement/relationship development],” then it doesn’t have a point, and it is time to go back to the drawing board.

I don’t really have a beta-reader. Sometimes one or two friends will be kind enough to look over a draft for me, to check for mood and pacing and stuff – and to reassure me that it isn’t a steaming pile of donkey-doo! But mostly it is me chipping away at it on my own. That’s okay, though: I don’t think there’s a wrong way to do this bit. As long as it is edited.

I don’t print it and red-pen. I do a LOT of highlighting on the word document, and I keep a notebook by the computer for ideas, character tidbits, snippets of dialogue that might get orphaned, etc. 

I do read scenes aloud on occasion, to see if it builds properly, if the shape of it is as I hope it is. I also try reading the dialogue alone, without the description/exposition that may now and then happen between lines of dialogue, to hear whether it works as a play would. (Playwriting is honestly an amazing way of learning to condense a LOT of meaning into dialogue ALONE. Reading and performing plays has made me a better writer, I stg.)

Sometimes I look at timing in my scenes or in a chapter, and go URGH. That is when I start to think, “all right – break it down into CAMERA SHOTS.” This helps find the pace of it. For instance, I am not intimidated by battle scenes, because I control the camera. I can remove half the ‘takes’ later on, if they’re not helping. But just having them to begin with will give my battle-scene more space and more life and fullness, rather than simply describing blow after blow after blow.

I edit as I write. I edit after I’ve written two sentences. I edit after I’ve written a paragraph. I edit after I’ve written a whole scene. I edit after I’ve written a chapter. I edit after I’ve posted a chapter. I edit a previous chapter after I’ve tweaked the last one I posted. I edit like a madwoman. 

Very often, the editing starts the words coming out again in a faster current, and I have the impetus/inspiration to add a bit more to the end of the work. And off I go again, editing furiously 🙂

This strategy might not help you, though. Some folks do better to write while the words are coming, and edit when they’re finished. No way is right, no way is wrong! 

Just knowing you’re on the ace spectrum gives me hope somedays that maybe I will one day be able to get married and maybe have kids because some days I just don’t feel like anyone could love me if I’m ace so thank you, you give me hope

Hey Nonnie, and all the hugs from me to you right now. You can, you absolutely can. And you are absolutely worth all the love in the world. I hope you find it.

If I have any insight (and everyone’s experience is ofc gonna be different), I’d say that I’ve learned this: it takes a LOT of communication. It takes a lot. You have to keep talking, keep gauging how each other is feeling, and negotiate your way through it. It’s never a once-off conversation, bc if resentment piles up in any relationship, it’s a poisonous sort of thing. 

And to communicate on that level, there has to be trust. SO much trust. I have to trust that I am loved (DIFFICULT when you have a mental illness, sometimes!!!), and Mr Dets must trust that I love him. I trust that he wants me to be happy, and vice-versa. He trusts that I will listen to him and take his wants and opinions on-board, and I do the same. 

It’s very difficult to extend so much trust when you are very insecure or if depression is kicking your butt – I have experience in that department! – but it is very rewarding with the right person, and never, ever doubt that you are worth it. Please believe me when I tell you that you are deserving of love and affection and the future you wish for. 

estel-of-the-eyrie:

So I decided to re Chapter 45 of Sansukh on the wy to college this morning, given that it updated at 4am in the UK.

MISTAKES HAVE BEEN MADE.

I read the more emotional parts in public with nowhere to hide, and the looks I got from friends as I sat there trying not to cry were quite entertaining.

And so were the looks of my classmates in Classics when I finished and essentially fangirled bc WEDDING. 

*HUGS AND HUGS* ALAJHGSLJHAD OH MY GOSH THANK YOU ESTEL

(also – um sorry whoops SORRY ALSO)

ninayasmijn:

So I just listened to Light on the Horizon and I’m honest to God shaking.. It was so so so beautiful! Just.. Aaaaaaahhhh

The harp made me super happy and!!!! Just everything was so beautifully written and the music was so gorgeous and Dets, your singing was so so so beautiful. I have n o words at all. @determamfidd

alksdghflajhsdgfalj OH NINA. Thankyou, beautiful! Thank you SO SO MUCH!

(heheh, speaking of the singing: I tried to pitch-shift the baritone and bass parts down an octave, so that it could be a proper SATB choir and not SSAA…AND IT SOUNDED DREADFUL, lmaaaao. I have found that which I cannot sing!!!!)