And I also love being mean to you. On this episode of ‘Depressing Sansukh Poetry’, we explore Thrain and Thorin, and I take some pretty massive liberties with his personality!
Tag: poetry
Thror’s madness is a sensitive subject
Watch me bring it up on this episode of ‘Depressing Sansukh Poetry’!
Dain you’re short
And so is this poem. But it was surprisingly difficult to write. More depressing Sansukh poetry! (No read more for this one, too short for it to be worth it)
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The crown sat heavy upon his head
Gold and jewels like shackles to the dead
An oath to the people for whom he had bled
A promise to a cousin that forever went unsaid
A tie to a path he had never wished to tread
A stopper for tears he could never shed
AUGH
ALL THE DAIN FEELS
you are, at your core
rock and stone
and though your eyes may one day grow dull
as the years you have spent in your mountain homes begin to carve away at your thick, brittle bones
for now they glint in the shadows
a reminder of the power held by those who do not fear the darkto keep you safe would be a sin
the flames in your veins do not want for peace
and i wish, i wish, i wish, i did not fear for you
but this is the burden that comes
with falling in love with fires
one day they will burn out
and all that’s left for me will be your embersdarling
i have died in every way you can imagine
waiting here for you
but each moment was worth the rasp of the callouses on your fingertips
as they brush over the backs
of my bruised and broken knucklesi am a prince of leaves and branches
and you are one of roots, as they wrap around great foundations
and when i meet you on these grey shores
nothing will tie me to them
not the sand beneath my feet or the mist that swirls around usi have always been too quick
to let the wind carry me away
but i will find your hand, in that thick, blinding fog
and your forehead against mine will ground me
here.
You’re asexual? But…
“but sex is what makes us human!”
in 1916 a French officer in his twenties writes his
doctoral dissertation under
heavy mortar fire.
he sends it by mail, a page
at a time, to his wife.
a week before he’s to step up to the podium and
defend his work rather than his country
he is killed in action.
even as the bullets rip
through him he still wishes he could have become a professor
in French literature and
the university awards him a posthumous Ph.D.
sex is
a woman breaks down in tears on the phone because
a week is not enough time to
get over a breakup.
her sister drives an hour across town,
comes up the front steps with
a gallon of ice cream and somebeer
and together they eat moose tracks and marathon
every
single
Godzilla movie
ever made.
sex is
she’s late for work but her car isn’t
starting and even through her coat and hat she’s cold.
she knows she can’t be late again because she’s missed
one time too many already because her
father’s nurse was sick with the flu and someone
needed to help him bathe.
the clock ticks past fifteen after and she hits
the wheel like it’s a heavy bag as though that will help
steps on the gas like the car will go
and wonders how she will pay rent
and how she will feed her father.
sex is
it takes three people to hold the predator down because
even with the cover over his head
a bleeding eye and shattered wing
he is trying to hurt them.
none of them have seen this bird before in their lives but
they bandage his wing and head and give him a painkiller and
put him in a warm place to sleep and heal because
it is right.
at first he is paralyzed and cannot
fly but soon he is taking steps
and then fluttering, and then soaring, and
six months later he is whole and healed and hunting.
once he is gone they never see him again
which means they’ve done their jobs right.
sex is
in 1969 a girl watches grey-and-white footage on her parents’ tinytelevision and
can’t quite believe that what she is seeing is not a movie set but
another planet.
the men on the screen look a little like
aliens with bulbous heads and no faces and fat
marshmallow arms
but they are still men.
her mother puffs on a cigarette behind her and declares that
this is progress
even if it was just a small step.
the girl grows up to be not an astronaut but a secretary
and her boss calls her ‘sweetheart’.
but sex is
a boy is taught that real men don’t cry so
he doesn’t.
when his best friend dies from a self-inflicted
gunshot wound, he locks himself
in the shower every day and sobs under scalding
water until it runs cold
so nobody will see him grieving
so nobody will see that tears are just love that
has no place left to go.
he learns to dull love rather than suppress its expression and
soon the owner of the liquor store knows him by name.
three DUIs, two evictions, and twelve steps later,
he is feeding people at a homeless shelter,
and telling them it’s all right to cry.
Sex is
the broken man tells the comedian
that he didn’t mean to step in front of the car but the rain
made it hard to see.
he seems okay but his leg
does not.
the comedian clutches a grubby receipt with the driver’s
plate number scrawled on the back
in pink pen, stands out in the rain so the broken man
can have his umbrella,
and gives him the comedy routine that ruined his career
so the man doesn’t think about the pain in his leg.
once he’s out of the hospital, the fixed man sends him a thank-you card
with kittens on it.
what makes us human
yawning is contagious,
and there is a species of bird whose young we call “pufflings”.
melodic collections of sound, spaced by silence,
can move us to tears.
the tallest building in the world is
two-thousand seven-hundred and seventeen feet tall.
in less than eighty years we went from our first powered flight
to touching the moon,
and in one-hundred from the first phone call
to instantaneous connection between thinking machines of our owncreation.
we make pies out of tree organs
and let cow’s milk ferment until it hardens and then
we put them together, because apple pie with cheddar cheese is
delicious.what makes us human is
the earliest
fossils of anatomically modern humans aretwo-hundred
thousand years old .we have had
pet dogsfor sixteen-thousand
of those years, longerthan corn
or the
wheel.the steps we
take are part ofone of the
most energy-efficient gaits theanimal
kingdom has ever seen.we invented
the concepts of loveand hate
and justice,
and mercyand we
invented the language to convey them.we sharpened
rocks, then metal, to convince other peoplewho don’t
hold the same idea of those things as we dobecause we
thinkit’s right.
we are two
hundred millennia of love and disappointment andsorrow and
innovation andmercy and kindness
and dreamsand failure
and
recovery.but sex is what makes us human.
Where did you find all of the song in Sansûkh? Are they written in Lord of the Rings or in another of Tolkien’s books? Or did you write any yourself? Is there any music you listen to while you write to help you get into the LotR mood/mindset? (I haven’t read the books and I’m really interested in the music in this fic ^^ Sorry if it’s an odd question)
Not an odd question at all, Nonnie! I’m very flattered and glad that you’re interested 🙂
Okay, well, some of the songs and poems I have used are Tolkien’s words. Here are the ones I have used (or referred to) that are from canon:
Lay of Nimrodel
The Man in the Moon Stayed Up Too Late
Bilbo’s Bath Song
The Song of Durin (Gimli’s chant in Khazad-Dum)
The Lay of Luthien and Beren
The Riddle of Strider
I also used ‘I Sit Beside The Fire And Think’, but made up my own two final stanzas.
I also wrote a whole slew of new ones. The songs I created (GULP) are
Now and Forever I’ll Be Marching Home (the song sung as the Dwarves leave Ered Luin)
Bijebruk! (Gimli’s mining ditty, also doubles as a drinking song)
The Dwarven Mourning chant (rather like a plainsong, very hymnal)
The Song of Beginnings
The Iron Hills For Me
No, I don’t actually listen to music as I write. I tend to want to concentrate on the music, instead of writing! I find it really distracting. My head is a noisy enough place already 🙂
Some absolutely glorious people ( notanightlight , muchymozzarella, flamesburnonthemountainside) have composed and recorded songs from Sansukh. They are completely gobsmackingly beautiful. Check it out on the utterly bogglingly huge Sansukh Masterpost.
(It also has the link for my own version of the Iron Hills For Me, oh gawdelpme hahaha)