I literally type the letter D into my url bar, and my top two results are basically “did you mean: sansukh feels?”
@determamfidd I feel like there’s a “get the D” joke to be had here, but I can’t.
omg PFFFFFFTHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
(also – *blushes furiously* omg omg omg are you for real)
The sweet smell of water, lotus, and the deep woods surrounded the pool. The stars in the sky were mirrored in the cool depths as was the shining moon. Tall, majestic trees surrounded it and a sheer, rock cliff stood off to one side protecting this pool from prying eyes.
Camp was where Muil had left the sleeping Meluiwen with Kara and Jeri was on guard duty. It was a good distance away but not out of earshot as Muil liked her privacy. Laindawar was somewhere nearby probably. Not that his presence or non-presence concerned Muil. He was probably out scouting the perimeter as he did every time they set up camp.
A soft, sad sigh escaped Muil as she looked out over the picturesque water. Her thoughts drifting always to Laindawar. She and Laindawar always seemed to be rubbing each other the wrong way. That was distressing to her. She wanted to get closer to him. But it was hard for her interact with someone who she didn’t have to parent or at least be a dictator towards till they healed. She had been healing, helping, and dealing with the other races for too long. Avoiding elves had became second nature because it was painful. Painful to remember how little there were left of her people; what the Avari were forced to become by Melkor and his followers.
These thoughts swirled and warred inside her mind as her practiced fingers she let down her thick, mahogany hair. The braids unraveling between her warm, autumn brown fingers. She was not elegant in doing this. She was efficient in her actions.
In a matter of moments her hair cascaded down to the sandy bank of the pool. The beige sand glittering like pale, broken pearls in the moonlight. Her hair cutting a dark path behind her as he moved towards the water’s edge.
Stopping herself she remembered she needed to undress. No need to ruin her favorite traveling clothes. Soon her aladdin salwar was added to the pile of her hair ties. Then her beaded, kurta-like, tunic came next and then her various undergarments. They were all arranged in a neat pile beside of her feet. Finally she took off her various pieces of jewelry and laid them on top of her clothes.
Edging into the water she let out a sigh of relief. It was so nice to feel the coolness of the water against her heated skin. The relief of getting weeks of grime off of her made her shudder with pleasure.
A twig snapped. No sound came from Muil as she looked over her shoulder. Her eyes wide as she scanned the edge of the treeline for a sign of an intruder. Then her eyes fell on him. His crystalline blue eyes were wide – it was clear he had spotted her.
Moving deeper into the water she held her arms across her chest. Modesty sweeping through her at the sight of Laindawar.
“See something you like pigenor?” she called out teasingly. Her voice and sly smile hiding her deep embarrassment at being seen so exposed. Then she turned around and slid further into the water. It’s cool embrace welcoming her.
A sputtering sound came from Laindawar’s direction. His pale blue eyes reflecting the pale moonlight. Turning on his heel he started to stalk off. Then he snorted. “Depends trethril. You blend into the darkness well.”
A peal of laughter escaped Muil. Her silver eyes reflecting the twinkling starlight and her mirth. Her laugh was soft, warm, like a warm day in spring. A hint of cold in it but the promise of something great in the future.
Laindawar’s eyes widened. His face unreadable as he looked straight ahead of him into the treeline. “Are you sure it is safe to bathe in such an exposed area trethril?” he asked her haughtily.
“Positive pigenor.” she answered before dunking her head under the water. Wetting her long tresses before she reemerged. The water dripping from her as she turned to stare at his back. “I can take care of myself after all.”
“And if someone tries to harm you trethril?” he asked, ignoring her statement about taking caring of herself. His hand came to rest on his sword.
Without a word the water rippled around her as she moved silently out of the pool. Pulling her long hair around herself as she moved to her pile of clothes.
Suddenly her wet hands come to caress his neck. A bite of cold steel against his neck before she let it clatter to the ground. Instead she gently ran her fingers over his adam’s apple. gently a subtle threat beneath her water cooled fingers. “Do not doubt me pigenor.”
Her wet body pressed against his clothed one for the briefest of moments. She leaned into him and whispered in his ear. “After all, I’ve had to take care of myself for a long time.” her breath caressing his ear..
As suddenly as she had came to stand behind him she retreated to the water. Her conquest finished and now it was time to finish her bath. A soft smile gracing her features. She had felt him tense when her hands encircled his throat.
“Agreed Baralineth.” he answered stoically
Then he marched off into the forest without looking back.
If he had looked back Laindawar would have seen the crimson blush that covered Muil’s cheeks. Her eyes wide and her mouth slightly agape. Her long hair, darkened by the wetness and the night, dripping it’s over ripeness onto her shoulders.
He had called her by her name.
Not Muil, but her mother-name. A soft, hopeful smile slowly crept onto her features as she brought her hands up to touch her lips. A soft, wistful sigh escaping her as she shook her head. A soft hum soon escaping her as her smile grew and suddenly she started to sing. Hope filling her for the first time in a ages. But the hope of what?
Some time later Muil returned from her bath. Her dusty clothing draped neatly over her one arm and her long hair in a simple four-strand braid to keep it from dragging to much on the ground. She was wearing only her undergarments so she could change clothing when she reached her wagon.
Smiling she saw that Jeri was still on guard-duty, Kara was sleeping and Meluiwen had woken up to face her day. A bright cheerful smile on her face as she trotted over to her “momee”. Her hair in disarray as she had put it up herself so it seemed.
“Momee need to dress.” she stated. Putting her hands on her hips as she stared up at Muil. Her bright blue eyes glowing like a cats.
Chuckling she crouched down and pulled the orc-child into a hug. Kissing her forehead gently. “Mommy will darling. But first…can I fix your hair.”
“No! I dids it meshelf!”
Sighing exasperatedly she couldn’t help but grin. This was going to be a long, long night.
pigenor – Tiny One
trethril – Troubler/Harrasser
Avari – Those elves who refused the summons to Valinor.
OMG AHAHAHAHAHAHA I AM DYING AT THE THOUGHT OF LAINDAWAR BEING ALL ‘OHFUCKSHIT UM OKAY’ IN THIS MOMENT, *sniggers* and the fact that he uses her mother-name and betrays his friendly feelings by accident – lolol omg that is SO him. He holds his positive emotions verrrrrry close, and isn’t always aware of them (see: his conversation with Jeri on the battlements) – and always ends up letting them out in odd ways!
holy heck Muil is so damn cool ❤ love the teasing names, and that they really, really can’t help but be abrasive at each other, even when one of them is naked!!
AHHH THANK YOU! THANK YOU SO MUCH!
(also Meluiwen is the cutest ever omfg)
OK it’s time I finally put down in words just how fantastic Sansukh is because this fic has taken over my life in the past two weeks and this is why (spoiler free reasons):
- Bagginshield. I mean, duh.
- THE QUALITY OF THE WRITING HOLY SHIT YOU GUYS
- I’m not kidding it’s like reading another Tolkein epic
- The fact that there is so. much. diversity. in every single possible way. Nonbinary characters? Yep. Asexual characters? Yep. Trans characters? Yep. This is all my dreams come true for fantasy I swear.
- The sheer range of content from heartwarming to heartrending and everything in between, from tiny little intimate moments to the epoch-defining battles
- THE DWARVES seriously I didn’t understand how much I could love dwarves until I read this
- The sarcasm of elves is unparalleled.
- Aragorn is such a Done Dad I love him
- I mean who wouldn’t be having to deal with Gigolas every day
- Poor guy
- GIGOLAS IS PERFECT
- Literally perfectly written
- YOU WILL LOVE THORIN OAKENSHIELD MORE THAN YOU THOUGHT WAS EVER POSSIBLE
- You get to find out what happens in Erebor in actual proper detail and that’s a whole pretty saga (as Dain might say) that’s well worth the telling.
- THE SONGS. THE SONGS MAKE ME SOB EVERY SINGLE TIME.
- There’s actually a fair amount of sobbing, but in a good way.
- IT’S NOT EVEN OVER YET YOU HEAR ME THERE IS STILL MORE TO COME!
Please just go and read it, and thank you a million times to determamfidd for bringing this creation into the world and sharing it with us.
omg…!
I read this with the HUGEST SMILE on my face, thank you just so so much!
It’s something that offends me too, on a number of levels. So, you’re welcome Nonnie – and I’ll strive to always keep working at dismantling and refuting that stereotype, bc it is bleh. It reminds me of racist invective, and its real-world connotations are antisemitic and just. *brrr* nope.
omg I am so curious as to what you think it might be!!
I promise, it’s gonna happen. Four chapters to gooooo 🙂
Ahh, thank you so so much! I’m thrilled you liked it!
In light of the truly heartbreaking 46th chapter of Sansukh by @determamfidd, I decided to draw the latest reincarnation of Durin~ Obviously he’s a bit older here
OH MY GAWD OH WOW
LOOK AT THIS CHEEKY LIL CHAPPIE AND HIS HAPPY DANCE AND HIS HAPPY GRIN
hot damn I love his hair!!! I love him, omg what a cute lil ragamuffin he is I love it, I love his long braid and his sticky-uppy fringe, AHHHH
From one Aussie to another – THANK YOU SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!
Hey Nonnie!
Well, canonically we don’t actually know very much about this. What we have is briefly summarised here. There’s also the speculation that Durin would return to herald the final era of glory for the Dwarves, before they dwindled and disappeared to give way to the era of Men.
Durin VII is supposed to reclaim Khazad-dum, too 😉
So, the legend goes like this, in short:
The Dwarves believe that the eldest of the seven original Dwarves, Durin, would be reincarnated seven times and reign as King. There have been six Kings called Durin thus far.
In Sansukh, the seventh just arrived!
We know that Durin VII is meant to be descended from Thorin III Stonehelm, which is shown in the family tree in the LOTR Appendices.
What we DON’T know: how the heck do they know it’s Durin??????
My solution: Durin’s eyes. They shine in certain light, like ithildin.
Some speculation and ideas, now: I don’t believe that this little baby is going to have ALL the memories of his earlier lives. I think that is a recipe for disaster and heartache, frankly. He’s still a child, who does child things.
Each incarnation is like a possibility: I’m of the nurture-over-nature school of thought here. Depending on the influences in a kid’s life they can grow and develop in a myriad of ways, and this one is no different.
Some memories will come later in his life, as he becomes ready for them (not his deaths, though. Mahal would never be so cruel). More important is how people help and prepare him to face his own legend – and whether they treat him like an actual child, who does child-things both good and bad!
His new parents are very well suited to help with this, actually. Thorin Stonehelm knows ALLLLL about following in the footsteps of giants and having to live up to an impossible legacy. And Bomfris would tell Eru himself to shove it where the sun shineth not! She’s not going to hold back from telling a naughty Durin to ‘go to your room!’ if needed.
So, there’s some headcanoning! I hope you like, Nonnie!
<3333333 Sam is my Lion of the Shire, I adore him forever.
(that especially snarky line? the “Calling your Chief Names, Wishing to punch his Pimply Face, and Thinking you Shirriffs look a lot of Tom-fools” line? ISN’T MINE. That’s Tolkien’s, from the chapter The Scouring of the Shire, and is a contender for my favourite line in the whole trilogy. DAMN I LOVE SAM)
heheheheheh, lil Stormcloud, thundering away!
Thank you so so much, Nonnie! *hugs*
@determamfidd chAPTER 46 MADE ME FEEL THINGS, PAINFUL THINGS
*HITS HIGH F*
HOLY HECK FISHY HOLY HECK NOW I AM SOBBING
this is incredible you are a goddamn WIZARD or something, I am honestly tearing up here, have my entire heart, you destroyed it
I’m honestly blubbing all over the keyboard: wee Disith’s raven birthmark and her tiny newborn hands (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and curled up body, SO PERFECT I AM GONNA DIE, i am being assaulted by memories here and HER PERFECT PERFECT LITTLE CROOKED FEET DRAWN UP
OH FISH
DIS
DIS
her age-spots, the tattoos on her hand!! her sad, old blue eyes, the white hair, her beard and shawl, I AM honestly, honestly sobbing my heart out, the firelight on her face, her EXPRESSION OH HELP ME
DIS AND DISITH, I AM SO WRECKED RN
*clings to fishy like a limpet* THANK YOU. Thank you so so so SOOOO much, my incredible friend, you astonishing wonderful person, THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH.
Finished. For @determamfidd and her epic Sansukh.
*grips heart* oh my GOD
oh my GOD – this – words FAIL me – I am just astounded by the skill and detail and wonderfulness of this!! *SCREAMS UNTIL THE MOUNTAINS RING* LOOOOOOOOKKKKK!
Gimli! Legolas! Thorin and Bilbo and oh god the tears, the tears are OW, and Frodo and Sam here are so goddamn perfect i am cry, Frodo’s face and Sam’s sweet resolute expression and HELP ME I KEEP LOOKING AT ALL THIS DETAIL AND FLAILING – Legolas’ armour and the Art Nouveau travery on his tunic and the Durin Blue on Gimli (THAT TEXTURE!!!) and the brooch, and HIS CHEEK-TASTIC GRIN I am gonna hyperventilate here!
and omg Barad-Dur in the background SO PERFECT YES BECAUSE YES OH MY GOSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHH
thank you! Thank you SO SO MUCH!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!
Aw Yiss 