– Father
– Stay back
– No. I will fight with you
Tag: thrain
Thrain I love you
And I also love being mean to you. On this episode of ‘Depressing Sansukh Poetry’, we explore Thrain and Thorin, and I take some pretty massive liberties with his personality!
I was having some major feels, so I went through and read all the Thorin and Frerin parts, and I have a MIGHTY NEED for their relationship to be explored more. Your appendices story was lovely, I may or may not have teared up at one point. As always, thank you for the beautiful writing Dets :)
Oh, I am SO GLAD you like them. I have such massive Thorin & Frerin feelings, they’re a bit uncontrollable at times!
Here’s a little character-study snippet for you, Nonnie. I hope you enjoy it!
Frerin is yawning into his bowl of Hrera’s soup. Beside him, Thorin is slack-faced and slouching. Both of them spoon their food into their mouths mechanically, their identical blue eyes bleary and half-lidded.
“Don’t eat and yawn at the same time, nadad,” Thorin mumbles. Frerin makes an indistinct noise of agreement, and almost nods into his bowl.
They’re both utterly exhausted. Still, it is good to see, Thráin thinks.
Even though he is himself nearly asleep, Thorin reaches out and tucks a stray braid behind Frerin’s ear before it dips into his meal. It is a gesture vaguely reminiscent of the way he treats his nephews, but not quite.
When Thorin cares for Fíli and Kíli, he looks upon them and touches them with a near-paternal love and pride. There is tenderness there, and devotion, and the remnants of Thorin’s terrible guilt. It is a love that watches with a father’s careful eye. Thráin knows that love, knows it well. He also knows how it feels to let go, to stand aside, and watch your beloved children make their own way.
When Thorin watches Gimli, he stands tall with his chin held high. When he admires Gimli’s proficiency with words or weapons, his chest rises and he half-smiles without even realising it. His love for Gimli is one of loyalty and trust, of fellow-feeling and
camaraderie. He sees his best self in Glóin’s son, Thráin suspects. And it is heartening to see Thorin find the greatness in himself through the greatness in another.
But Thorin will reach out and touch Frerin’s lucky hair without a second thought. Thorin will clasp Frerin’s shoulder as though it is simply an extension of his own hand.
Frerin leans his chin upon his hand and absently lifts his spoon. It bumps his cheek twice before he finds his mouth. “Nadad,” Thorin chides. “Take a sip of cold water; it will wake you.”
“S’good though,” Frerin says, but he picks up his cup and does as he is bid. Thráin covers his smile.
Frerin has always turned to his brother. Like the sun, Frerin shines brightest when he has someone to warm.
“You have soup on your chin,” Thorin says, and thumbs it away from Frerin’s short beard. Frerin grins at him.
“So do you.”
Thorin’s rare smile flashes over his face. “Well, we are a pair, aren’t we?”
A matching set, the court had called them. Though Thorin was tall and dark and Frerin was slight and golden, they had been inseparable since the day Frerin was born. Thráin can still remember a small Thorin dragging his baby brother around underneath the armpits, Frerin’s stockinged feet dangling in the air.
“Hold still,” Frerin says, and he pats at Thorin’s face with his small hands. Thorin holds still, letting immature fingers card through his beard.
Frerin sits back. “Got it. Shame I can’t do anything about the rest of your face, though.”
Thorin huffs, and his free hand reaches out once more and scruffs the bright mess on Frerin’s head. Frerin squawks, but his tired eyes dance for a moment.
“Finish your soup, and go to bed,” Thráin tells them, and two heads bob in acknowledgement just as in long-gone days.
But Thorin is older than Thráin now, careworn and world-weary, and Frerin is still teetering between childhood and adulthood forever. They are not who they were. Frerin taught himself not to matter, to disappear. Thorin taught himself to stand alone and not to reach for a small shoulder.
Yet still Frerin follows, and Thorin leads.
Frerin yawns again, and leans against Thorin’s side. His spoon misses his mouth once more.
“You are determined to wear it, aren’t you,” Thorin murmurs, and Frerin wrinkles his nose.
“Oh, you can talk. You’re the one who rubbed porridge in my hair.”
“Oh come now, I was eleven!”
Frerin laughs, and for a brief moment he shines. Thorin hesitates, and then his deep chuckle joins in. For a brief moment the two lads live again: the leader of their pranks and his lieutenant.
It is good to see, Thráin thinks.
*whispers* I love the line of durin so damn much
Pigs in Mahal’s Halls – applepieisworthit – The Hobbit – All Media Types, The Hobbit – J. R. R. Tolkien, The Hobbit (Jackson movies) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the
Organization for Transformative WorksThrain is utterly confused by Dain – for you determamfidd
INEXPLICABLE PIGS
I LOVE ITTTTT!
I was reading about your post on Dark Names and was wondering (tho I’m sure they did) did Thorin, Frerin, and Dis ever tell Thrain and Fris their Dark Names? :o Was it kinda the same each time? (Without being spoilery for Dark Names we don’t know yet of course c: )
Thorin told his mother and father when he was very small, perhaps 15 or so. Thrain wept. It was adorable.
Frerin told his mother, after they had both died. Fris wept. It was awful.
Dis has only ever told her husband. She has never truly felt safe enough in her living memory – though not through any fault of her parents. She was only 10 years old when the dragon came and her mother died.
(For comparison’s sake, during the War of the Ring Gimizh is 25.)
Do you have any Sansukh first teeth headcacoms in celebration of the Dwarfling getting hers? (Also congrats for her for doing this and you for putting up with teething baby)
(Thanks, Nonnie! She’s very proud of her new hardware!)
…
“Well, it’s not unheard of,” said Fris, examining the baby’s mouth with her finger. Little Dis scowled up at her, and gummed enthusiasically upon it in retaliation.
“I’m sure they’ll grow in their own good time,” Thrain said, and smoothed back the baby’s fine, downy-soft hair.
“Both the boys had their first teeth by ten months,” Fris fretted, and she wiped her finger absently upon her dress and bounced the little girl up and down with her other arm. Dis squealed, open-mouthed, and waved chubby fists in the air.
Thrain wasn’t sure what to say to that. Both the lads had been as textbook as they come, hitting each milestone as though ticking off a list. Thorin had been through the food-fussy stage right on cue, and Frerin had dropped his morning naps right on his first birthday.
Their little girl was proving to be made of a different metal altogether. She wasn’t interested in crawling at all, and preferred to pull herself up using her parents’ hands, the furniture, skirts, trousers, or whatever was closest. Then she would stumble around, holding tightly to whatever she’d found, until she sat down – bonk! onto her bottom.
Then she would holler.
“Well, she won’t grow teeth for our wishing it,” sighed Fris, and put Dis down upon her rug. The baby immediately scooted around on her bottom to face them and lifted her hands, an imperious expression on her tiny face.
Thrain half-smiled, half-sighed. “I’ve got it, dearest,” he said, and bent his (aching) back once more so that his daughter could move about the room on faltering feet.
…
“Ow!”
Fris was woken out of her sleep by a yelp from the childrens’ rooms, and she rubbed her bleary eyes as she sat up. “What in Mahal’s name,” she growled, under her breath.
Beside her, Thrain mumbled something that sounded very like, “lookitthedolly” and rolled over.
Fris resigned herself to being the one to get up this time, and put on her housecoat and slippers and padded down the corridor to where Dis’ door was slightly ajar.
Pushing it open, she found her middle child kneeling upon the floor, his hand cradled in his lap and tears in his eyes. In the crib, Dis was glaring, red-faced. She looked like she was getting up the energy for a really satisfying scream.
“Frerin, why are you in your sister’s room?” Fris asked, trying very hard to keep the weariness from her voice.
“I always come in,” Frerin sniffed, still rubbing at his hand. “She wakes up around now, I c’n hear her from next door. She likes it when I pat her hair. But she bit me this time!”
“Frerin, it is my job, mine and your father’s, to comfort your sister,” Fris said, kneeling down by him. “It’s your job to be her brother.”
Frerin pouted, big blue eyes watering. “But I c’d hear her!”
“Oh, my summer sunshine,” Fris said, running her hand over his sweet little face. He sniffled. “You’re a little boy, Frerin. I know you want to help her, but this isn’t the way. No wonder you’re so tired in the mornings. Why didn’t you tell me?”
Frerin looked away, and Fris stifled another sigh. Of course he would think of caring for his family before he thought of himself at all. “Show me your hand?”
He held out his hand, lower lip quivering. There was a bloody little indentation in the meat of the palm.
“Does that hurt?” Fris asked him, and he nodded vigorously.
“It’s all sharp! She’s never been sharp before!”
Fris blinked. “Sharp?”
In the crib, Dis finally opened her mouth and began to let out a truly victorious howl. In the centre of her lower gum was a tiny, barely-noticeable white line.
7 Minutes in Heaven – applepieisworthit – The Hobbit – All Media Types, The Hobbit – J. R. R. Tolkien, The Hobbit (Jackson movies) [Archive of Our Own]
This is the next instalment in my Durin’s falling over series – Thror was first, this is Thrain and Dain is next!
AHHHH FAB THANK YOU SO SO MUCH #BATTLEPIG
lol Dori knocks em all over one way or another!
The Mighty Fall – applepieisworthit – The Hobbit – All Media Types, The Hobbit – J. R. R. Tolkien [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
My new story on AO3, a gift for determamfidd renioferebor and justatouchofgoldsickness (or Thror and Thrain in the Sansukh podfic respectively) Thrór, son of Dáin, King under the Mountain, the mightiest of the Dwarves of Durin’s line, has just risen from his throne to greet the Elvenking, tripped over his robes and sent himself sprawling face first across the hard marble floor at the base of the throne.
AWWW BATTLEPIG, IT’S LOVELY
hahahahahaha, no dignity for you, Thror (THRAIN PFFT). Thank you so much! *tacklehugs and #babybattlepigs*)
…Was Thror going all Lion King with baby Thrain? Also that was a wonderful ficlet.
There wasn’t a crowd of animals all bowing (heheh!), but I think there would have been a presentation, as in renaissance times, to show the Kingdom the new heir.
Also – thanks!